She held out her new baby for me to hold.
I knew my friend meant it kindly, but I somewhat panicked and practically pushed the baby back at her.
Because, you see, I don’t think I’d ever held a newborn before.
That’s the truth. Even though I was nearly 30 years old. And even though I was due to give birth to our first child in only a few weeks myself.
I think my dear friend was horrified. I didn’t know how to cradle a baby? Didn’t know how to feed him? To change him? To tuck him in?
How in the world could I give birth to my own child when I had NO CLUE what I was doing??
The very questions I’d been asking myself for some time. What business did I have becoming a mother? What were my qualifications and what kind of experience did I bring to this life-impacting role?
Seemingly not much at all.
But God was gracious and somehow brought me along. He gave me the gift and then equipped me as we went along. Baby and I. Good thing our precious child didn’t know he had an amateur for a mom.
For those who, like me, sometimes wonder about their mothering qualifications…..
I hope to encourage you with the rest over at TheBetterMom today!